40 mph

hey hey baby,
can't you see
i break before you get to me.
i'm laughing inside,
along for the ride,
unused to serious
frivolity.

smile so it hurts, i still want
everything you need.

forgiveness and your kiss is
more than i deserve this
is more than i reserved
but someday i will give you
what you missed, i promise, this

is more than i dared believe would ever be
possible
more than i bared to him in four months of
nothingness - love
and i can't figure it out.