a very long poem about my very long weekend

i drifted that day reveling in sunshine
and turquoise satin, which is almost exactly
what i've wanted for a year now and

what i want more than anything, i can't have.

lady, don't treat me like a child, too soon we'll
exchange on a first-name basis and maybe i'll write a song
for you because i think it might sound nice but please
at least pretend to be as crazed as i am

dear father, all i can really ask is why?

and you are three twins, i know it's what you want and
i get it and i'm glad but i want you and you don't have a clue

and love is real, not fade away! (not fade away)
we're all still here, the same today!
looking for a miracle, dancing in the streets,
sharing bags of cocaine sharing all you've got to eat
children playing in the dirt will never know another way
and thirty years from now my daughter will wonder how they went astray
and it was too small, that part of me that wanted to stay,
i drank it, shimmied in the contact high the haze of illegal blues
got me down deep baby, deep.

forget the mile high club. some day i want to have sex at a concert.

and my shirtsleeves roll up and random gives me hope but
it wasn't too long ago i was crying and so much i can never change

because it will never, ever be the same
and you'll never, ever say my name.

but i want you. i want you so bad.